I apologized to my wife for making her feel bad
For making her feel less
I didn’t try to explain, I said it was all me
I said I was sorry about sighing and closing my eyes
I told her that I have wildly intense emotions
At the thought of certain things,
Things that happened, or might have happened,
Or might yet happen.
And you, I also apologize to you, forever,
For frightening you, for every assault of words
A deep injury to your compassion
When your soft self was wandering.
Say you forgive me
And that man will go missing
Maybe stabbed through while sharpening a knife
Or devoured by his own conscious beasts.